year ago this week, and what would you know, but I missed Friday then too and made up with a Saturday post. Further proof that at times when I think I am living on some type of loop, I probably am.
So, the basic story is that I am still blocked. I am writing, taking photographs, and spending the "right" amount of time in my studio. I have even painted, but the works are not coming forth- they are remaining submerged under the surface. Bubbling up under my skin, but then retreating when I try to actualize them. I have to be patient. I am not good at waiting. When I am not painting, I worry that I may never paint again- which is completely ridiculous. I think I might forget how; again not possible! Anyway- suffice it to say, when I am not working it messes with my mind, mood, and my overall life. Typical artist type behavior.
When I haven't been working, I am not sure what to share with you all on here, hence the delay. I tried to write about my creative block in my journal, but everything I wrote seemed overly dramatic or too personal to share here.
This is just part of the process, like folks mentioned last week. This will not be the last time I stumble or feel uncomfortable on the creative path. I have to reassure myself that something is building, and when it is time, it will pour out of me and into future paintings.
Thanks to all my readers who check in here, and all my friends who remind me not to be so hard on myself and to be patient. Sometimes, it is the people on the outside who can see so clearly, what we cannot when we are wrapped up inside. I hope the muse finds us all and soon.
Thanks for checking in.